Guaranteed Improvement

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I have found incontrivertible proof that I have improved as an artist.  This should of course be a good thing, but it's actually crushingly, horrifically embarrassing.  I didn't think much could embarrass me, but it turns out that "Me from the past" can do it without even trying.

I found a fanart that I drew a couple of years - and it is apalling.  I don't mean "bad" or "I do better now" - I mean it looks like something a well meaning but unfortunately retarded child would draw, painstakingly and over the course of several hours and a number of chewed crayons.  Worst, I didn't just draw this; I drew it, liked it, and e-mailed it to the subject (who was kind enough to respond nicely and NOT dispatch trained assassins to torture me to death).

Since then I've developed a number of abilities which have helped me no end:
- Actually studying anatomy
- Using multiple drawings and attempts to learn and produce a piece, stretched over more than one sitting
- Actually throwing out the awful, awful drawings without ever showing them to anyone.

I can only hope the subject never again attachs my name to that work, and that over the rest of my life I can devote myself to producing Ein Masterwork which can compensate.  And perhaps be sent back in time, to erase the first.

Embarrassment = Progress!
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I applaud the fact that you embrace your artistic development, regardless of the perceived magnitude of your improvement. Remember, that even masters and gurus once were novices, trainees, and apprentices. Onward, then, with your chronic commitment to excellence.

Thank you. Despite the fact that I am confident in my artistic abilities, I will sometimes fall into negative ruts. With this Note, you inspired me to continue to push onward, and to pursue artistic and personal excellence, on my part, now, as well as, forevermore.